Sammii20

I hate the fact that I have let it go this far.

I hate the fact that I like you so freakin much that I am afraid I am starting to fall into that stupid “l” word with you.

I hate that when I tell myself I am not going to give you the time of day, those are the days you want to see me.

I hate how you smile everytime you see me cause my stupid brain likes to pretend that means something.

I hate that I know everything between us is nothing and will always be nothing.

I’m not pretty enough, funny enough, or confident enough for you.

I know that when you look at me you don’t think; “Man, she’s beautiful.”

I wish I could just go back to before I met you.

I wish I could just be happy again.

I was doing so well and then you had to come along.

I am so sick of crying over you at night and pretending I am fine and dandy the next day.

Its just too fucking much.

I wish you would just go away.

But more than anything, I just wish you would feel the same way about me.

But fairy tales aren’t real.